Mar 6, 2012 - my journey    22 Comments



…is how much I weigh, now.

I have put it off, and put it off, and put it off, but I think I need to start doing something about that number today or that number will be right back up to 275 in a heartbeat.¬†Actually, going at this rate, I’ll be back up to 275 by Christmas.

And if I did my math right, I’ve gained a total of 35 pounds since my last blog post in September.

I have to say this about that, though, I don’t feel that bad (physically) about the extra poundage. I mean, my cloths are tight and I’m a bit uncomfortable in my jeans, but overall, I don’t feel horrible. I don’t feel as bad as I thought I would.

But I know if I don’t stop “eating whatever I want”, all my hard earned weight loss efforts will be for nothing. It took me 4 years to lose 100 pounds. And I’ve successfully (gulp) gained back 50 of those pounds over the past two years. And I will NOT gain another 50 pounds!

Why does weight loss have to be so horribly hard?!

(That phrase, I think, will be my epitaph.)

Well, I’m not sure where I’m going to go from here. What path I’ll take. What my plan of attack will be. But I just wanted to blog about that number.

And the journey continues…


  • I am right there with you. I have gained back just about the same amount of weight . It’s so easy to gain and so difficult to lose.

    You however, KNOW it can be done. You KNOW what needs to be done. You KNOW you can do it! Lets do it!!!

  • You are NOT alone! It is hard, but the benefits WILL BE worth it! Keep up your journey-Kara Lea

  • I know you can do it and I think I can help. Give me an email, no strings :)

  • Thanks so much for posting. I’ve gain back 55 lbs of the 90 lbs it took me 3 years to lose. I don’t know what I’m going to do but I know I must do somethimg. Physically, I do feel terrible. Everything aches every day so you would think that would give me motivation but it seem that life and my new family get in the way. What freaks me out so much it took less than a year to put it back on. Your blog was on of the blogs I followed when I was losing, you gave me inspiration and you still do. Letting me know that I’m not alone in this struggle helps more than I can convey with words.

  • I’m in the same boat. It’s disheartening knowing where we’ve been, but I think ownership is the first key. We can do this! We’ve done it before!

  • So very proud of you.
    And thanks for being transparent.

    I lost five pounds (woopdee doo) when I was FASTING FROM SUGAR AND MEAT for 40 days. UGH! is that what is takes to lose FIVE POUNDS?!? I mean, really. If it could have been TWENTY, perhaps I would be motivated.

    The only thing, really, that keeps me from sugar (the true love of my life. Sorry Jesus. Sorry Larry. Sorry Chris.) is the hot flashes or nightmares I have when I do too much.

    Like I blogged a few months ago: why don’t we crave the good stuff?

    Thanks again for sharing your journey and your tenacity.


  • Hi There-

    Thank you for being honest. I’ve just started my weight loss journey with Weight Watchers and everyone is all peaches and cream. I’m nervous for the future. I’ve worried so much about all the effort I’m going to have to put forth with the possibility of gaining it back. I’ve been reading your past posts so I know that the work is worth it but to see you so openly confronting your weight gain…. well… frankly its inspiring as well.

    Why does weight loss have to be so horribly hard? As my grandma always said: Nothing worth doing was ever easy.

    Keep up the fight! As these other ladies have said: you’ve done it before, you can do it again. I’ll be looking for future posts of inspiration!

  • I ask myself that same question. I think we all do. Thanks for sharing and I know you can get right back to where you were!

  • I believe you can do it! I know it is hard. I have reached my all-time high weight of 246. I have 100 pounds to lose. I figure if I put myself out here, and make myself accountable, then maybe I can lose the weight. I plan to follow others who are also in the same boat, like you. I figure we can help each other thru this journey. I look forward to seeing your progress.

  • You can lose the weight, and you don’t have to gain it back. Shift your mindset to where it was when you were feeling good about yourself.

    Weight loss doesn’t have to be hard. You just want to change the ways you think about it every day. Don’t deprive yourself, but balance your choices with exercise and pick up your good nutritional habits more often than not. I drink loads of water and add in a protein shake every day. I also keep those Zone bars in my pantry to stave off those chocolate cravings. :)

    You have a wonderful blog, and you are already a success! 100 pounds in 4 years! Excellent!!!

  • Don’t give up! I’m where you are . . . I’m on the wagon, I’m off the wagon.
    Each time though I’m more mindful and it’s easier to get back on track more often.
    Blessings to you today-Kara Lea

  • You can do it, Cara! You’ve lost 100 lb before, you can definitely lose that 50 you gained back. You’ve done it before, I know you can do it again. Remember, everything in moderation and there are no overnight tricks. Patience and perseverance is key. I’m back in the same boat as you are. After baby #2, I still have 10 more pounds to lose to get back to pre-pregnancy weight. I know I just need to eat better and keep running (be more active!). Ten pounds may not be a lot to some, but it’s a big number for me as I’m tiny. I’ve done it before so I know I can definitely do it again. And you can too!

    Good luck, and remember, we will get there again. :)

  • Do you know the books by Geneen Roth? I think they could help you more than Weightwatchers… for me they were a true revelation and I keep reading them, one after the other.

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